a very painful secret

sometimes we do things that we don't wanna do.
just to please the ones that we love.
just experienced it for the first time in my life.
heard things that i don't wanna hear
witnessed too much complicated points of views
silly speeches went through my neurons...
was shocked. still shocked...
are relationships like that?
i think i found the secret of long-last relationships.
eureka!
a very painful secret.
and i didn't like it.
and i will not like!
people think everything is just as the way it is
it is not.
i didn't like it.
and you will discover soon
i'm not that weak
to let anyone be bossy against me and my loved ones!
but it is a game in which
i will just wait in my safe place.
no more excuses
no more explanations
staying still and calm
waiting.
quiet.