In need of

Today I feel sad

Luckily it is a chance to write something 

As I am more creative when I am sad

I don't know whether it is going to be good or not

But I don't care, do you?

What I care is though

As we grow

The number of real people around us decreases

I feel deeply the need for a friend full of encouragement 

I have maybe one or two 

But I need more 

Some friends just take everything out of me

As if they are there just to eat my soul

Until they are satisfied 

This is what I see in many friendships

Is it the normal way?

I don't think so, it shouldn't be!

I was OK to be alone in the past 

But nowadays I am in need of someone

Someone who knows my past 

Who knows my youth, my soul

How colorful I am in fact

And someone who has the power

To take me out of this misery

And talk and talk and hug

And just sit then together

And be in peace forever

Then discuss our existence

Space, time, biology, psychology 

And everything that might be interesting

And then even the least interesting things

Like a bee buzzing around our breakfast table.

Just celebrating the feeling of being together 

Without judgement 

Singing together and screaming together

Until our neighbours come and knock our doors

Crying and then smiling

Mixing the joy with the eyedrops...